so close!

I am 39 weeks pregnant! I cannot believe #1 that I am this far along and #2 that I am still pregnant. I know those are contradictory. We met with the doctor today and I have no progress from last week, which was 1-2cm and 70% effaced. For some reason, me and Avery both were extremely hopeful to go to this doctor visit and thinking that I would have progressed some and would have some good news. I dont know what we were thinking. As a result, we were completely disappointed and barely said a word on the ride home because we were so bummed. We are so ready to meet our precious girl and as I've said before, I'm totally done with the whole pregnant thing. I've gone through a lot of emotions this afternoon, mainly disappointment, but have now made the resolution to be more positive about it. I am going to try to not complain about being pregnant because I know there are people in the world who dont have the opportunity to be pregnant and have thier own child. I am unbelievably blessed. The doctor plans to induce me on february 6th, which is 41 weeks. That is two weeks tops. If I've made it this far, I can make it two more weeks. I would absolutely LOVE for it to be sooner, even tonight, but I can make it two weeks. bring it on. It gives me more time to focus on how to be a good mother, rest when I am at home without having a crying newborn that I dont know how to soothe, and simply be a couple with Avery for the last time EVER.
I am still working and wondering how long this will last. The shifts are so long and I am simply not sleeping well. I can stay awake and get stuff done at work, but considering where I work (pediatric ICU), I'm worried that I am going to let my terrible pregnant brain get the best of me and make a potentially HUGE mistake. I'm not sleeping mainly because it is unbelievably hard to get comfortable but also because I wake up to go to the bathroom soo much. I literally got up every single hour last night. That doesn't make for good sleep and good thinking skills the next day. But 2 more weeks! We are super excited and sooo ready!