It has been waaay too long since I posted. Being a mom is super busy and I wouldn't trade it for the world. Ill try to give a rundown of the last few months. We are still trying to sell our house. We've had 3 offers but none have worked out for various reasons. It would have been nice to sell it months ago, but we are quickly approaching the time that we truly NEED to sell it. We have basically moved in with my parents early bc it is too hard to keep the house "show ready" with a baby crawling everywhere and since my mom keeps Grace, it's a million times easier on me. Avery is still working hard, likes his job, and has more time for Grace than he would have had previously. Such a blessing. I'm still working and in grad school which is so hard on my schedule and my mom has been such a HUGE help in watching Grace while I work, have class, and need to study. She drops what she is doing to help me all the time and I am so glad I have someone to watch Grace that I trust completely.
Grace updates: crawled at 6 months. Started pulling up at 6.5 months. She is now 8 months and she is literally alllll over the place and she can move soo fast. You really can't get anything done bc you have to watch her constantly. She can climb stairs, my least favorite. She has started letting go of things while she is standing and then falls and hits her head. She's got bumps and bruises already and has no fear. I love it. I love that she is adventurous, even though it scares me to death. She still has no teeth. I make all her food, which was fine, but she is getting bored with mashed food. But with no teeth, there's not a lot of options. Oh well.
I know I've said it before, but I literally have no idea what I was thinking waiting to have kids. She's a tiny, perfect human with this personality that is amazing. And when she looks up and grins when I walk in the door from work and bounces up and down from excitement just at seeing me melts my heart every time.
I have always had a problem with anxiously awaiting the next phase in my life. When I was in high school, I could not wait to go to college. When I finally got there, I immediately wanted to graduate and move on. After I got married and we lived in a small apt, I immediately started to imagine the next phase of eventually building our own home and so on. Since having Grave, I have learned to stop looking toward the future and cherish the now. Each time I rock her could be the last time. Each time she gives me a slobbery kiss could be the last. Each time I nurse her may be the end. As much as I look forward to her talking and walking, I am stopping myself from thinking "I wish she could do...." Bc it's not worth it and I'm not going to allow myself to wish away the present. I am cherishing every moment with her knowing that at any time, it could be the last time she does that particular thing. It drives me crazy that she spits out her food at me. But when she doesn't do it anymore I know I will miss it. So I'm finding the joy in her proud face after she realizes that if she spits far enough, it gets on me. She is very proud of that skill.
People have started asking when we will have our next one. Our truthful answer is that only God knows that. We are not in control of that fact. After having Grace and wondering what we waited so long for, I do not want to make that mistake again. Am I ready for another one? I don't know. But God does. And He will decide for us.
