18 weeks!!

I am 18 weeks pregnant today!!! We will find out in two weeks and one day if it is a boy or a girl and I am sooo ready to know. It is so hard not knowing because we can't really buy anything yet since we don't know. But I'm mainly concerned with the health part of the big 20 week ultrasound. I work in a unit where I see a lot of congenital anomalies so I am naturally very nervous about that part of the ultrasound. and I am praying so hard for a healthy baby. I truly don't care if it is a boy/girl, as long as it is healthy. I really hope the baby is cooperative so we can find everything out that day instead of having to do another one later on.

I dont really have any other news other than to ask for prayers for Avery and his job search. He has a lead on two different churches, but churches take so long to make decisions usually so its hard to wait. Avery is bored to death sitting at home with absolutely nothing to do and I know it is wearing on him pretty bad, so prayers would be appreciated. I work tomorrow so I've got to get to bed soon, but hope you are all having a great week!!

Random thoughts

I am currently watching bachelor pad. let me start out by saying I know it is complete trash and I'm amazed that I watch it, but I love reality tv. Kasey and Vienna are psycho and he has this terrible frog voice that I absolutely can't stand. Kasey just sang to her on national tv in his bad voice and he definitely can't sing. I can not wait for him and Vienna to go home!!!

I got called off work today. I am quickly realizing that it is almost impossible for me to work 3 days in a row with the whole pregnancy thing. I'm usually not a wuss so I'm blaming the pregnancy. By the end of the second day, I feel like I've been hit by a truck. The days are just soooo long! Today would have been my 3rd in a row so I put my name down to be called off. I feel so bad about it because I KNOW we need the money pretty bad right now, but I just can't do it. Especially when I did absolutely nothing today, literally sat around and watched tv. I know it's prob getting on Avery's nerves for me to be called off, contributing to the complete poorness, and then not do anything all day.

I start my second year of grad school this week. I am dreading it. I hate the thought of having to do homework, studying, going to lab for skills, dealing with financial aid, buying books, etc. I hate it. But here we go. Only two years left.

Unanswered Prayers

I haven't been up to much lately...I lead a pretty boring life. It's very strange to not have our schedule revolving around church and youth group activities. We definitely miss Millview and everyone there and I'm still a little bit in shock that we are really not going to be there anymore. Anyway, we aren't really sure what we are going to do about church and where we are going to go, but I guess we are just going to visit around until we figure out if Avery is getting another youth ministry job or not. I know that God is in control of what we are going to do and where we are going to end up. I was driving the other day thinking about my prayers and how I have been praying for Avery to have a new job quickly because financially we are going to need it before too long. The next song that came on was "Unanswered Prayers" by Garth Brooks. Just in case you don't know the song, the chorus is basically that some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers. I love how sometimes God speaks to me so quickly when he knows I needed to be reminded of that fact.

I got my first maternity dress and top today! It's weird to see how much I've grown in just a few weeks. It is so awesome to think of what a blessing it is to be carrying a child that is growing inside of me. I know part of it is because I haven't been sick at all, but other than the tiredness, I like being pregnant. I really can't complain about it because it is just an amazing feeling. The hardest thing to me is the fact that I work 12 hour shifts, which is a loooong time to be on your feet and working anyway, much less pregnant. But once again, definitely not complaining because it is all worth it. We go to the doctor on Tuesday for the 16 week check up and then I'll make our next appointment when we'll find out the gender!!! I am soooo excited!

Hope you all have had a great weekend!!

Carefree weekend

Me and Avery had a much needed carefree weekend. After a stressful end of the week, we didn't do much and it felt great! Friday, we hung out with some new friends and got addicted to a new board game, but I can't remember what it was called! Saturday, I went to one of my good friend's baby shower and had fun and got to see what I could look forward to. Saturday night we went to the drive in with my parents! It's been awhile since I've been to the drive in and it was so much fun! There is something about a drive in that I just love. Sitting outside, the smell of funnel cakes, kids running around, it's just fun and relaxing! Sunday morning we went to church with my parents, which was a little weird just because we haven't been anywhere but Millview for a quite awhile. I miss it already. Then we went home and grilled hamburgers with my parents and my brother and his fam came over. Anyway, that's really all we did and I know that's a pretty boring weekend, but it was nice to just relax and not worry about anything.

On a sad note, my sister in law's future mother in law passed away on Saturday night from cancer. I did not know her well, but just being around her a little, she was a very special woman. One of those people you immediately feel like you can talk to and easy to be around. Her family was all there and from what I heard, it was very peaceful. If you could just say a prayer for the Stewart family and my in laws as this is a very difficult time for them. I can't imagine how they must feel. Thank God she is with her Father now and not in pain anymore. Cancer really stinks.

Hope all of you who are starting school have a great week this week!!

Walking by Faith

Mine and Avery's lives are in the process of a big change right now. As some of you know, Avery has resigned as the youth minister at Millview Church of Christ. We are very sad about this decision, but have prayed about it for a long time and know that God is in charge of our lives and this is for the best. We LOVE the people at that church and I personally am still in shock that we will no longer be a part of it. The hardest part of leaving to me is the fact that we don't get to see the kids near as often, if at all, depending on if they want to see us, and that we didn't get a chance to say a face to face goodbye. I only hope they do not feel that we abandoned, as this was not in the slightest our intention. I am trying to now worry about the financial strain this will put on us and know that God will provide for us, take care of us, and has a plan for our lives. My prayer is that we will be constantly comforted by this thought and would like to ask for your prayers as well. We do not currently have plans as to what Avery is going to do, but are looking into several options. We are grateful for my job and we know there are definitely worse situations to be in. We both have amazing families who we know would do anything for us and we are blessed with food and a roof over our head.

On a lighter note, it is currently storming and thundering and the dogs don't mind a bit! I am grateful for that also. I know some dogs who go crazy in storms and ours don't care at all. We are almost 15 weeks pregnant and I absolutely cannot wait to find out the gender!!! I know that everyone says it, but I truly don't care what we are having, I simply want it to be health and have a 4 chamber heart (for thos that dont know, I work in pediatric ICU and see a LOT of congenital birth defects) Avery kind of wants a girl but he'd be fine with either. My only pregnancy craving so far has been frozen lemonade. Specifically Minute Maid individual servings of frozen lemonade. I LOVE THEM!!!

My First Blog

I have been thinking off and on about starting a blog especially since my sister-in-law has been trying to talk me into it. So since I'm pregnant, I've decided to just do it so I can write stuff down and serve as helping me to remember my pregnancy years down the road! So here we go!

I am 14 weeks pregnant right now and have not had one bit of sickness, I am just tired allll the time. and not just tired. completely exhausted, can't move off the couch tired. I always wondered why people complained about being tired when they were pregnant and couldn't decide if it was simply being dramatic because I thought I was tired all the time before. Well I will tell you, the baby sucks the life out of me! But for that being my only problem, I can't complain too much! Anyway, I dont have much else to say right now. I'll try my best to keep up with this blog whether anyone reads it or not. Have a great day!